The Sky Was Never So Blue (A Monolouge)

I’d been so used to florescent lights and 8-3’s that I’d forgotten what it felt like to look up.

I’d been in a constant rush and bumping people in halls that I’d forgotten what it felt like to breathe.

‘Till  I left the nest and began to fly…

I was free and free to be me in any way shape or form.

I was alive and alive, not for the very first time, but for real this time.

I touched the clouds with my fingertips and finally saw the sun.

I could see and would be seen; not as a girl but a woman on her to way to make it out there in the world.

Yet still a college girl.

Damn, I’d really forgotten to look up and admire the sky that moved above me.

I’d forgotten how to be free, rather I never knew how…

But now I lay out in green pastures and simply be me. Young, pleasant and free.

Do you have any idea what it’s like to not be told what and when to do things!?! I couldn’t believe my little slice of heaven would be this amazing dream.

I’m alive, sparked to life, I can feel myself taking form. Young, Strong and Free.

And even though the blue sky sings like angels to me I still love to dabble back in my home where I’m never alone and always told what to do becasue I know soon I’ll be free.

I’ll always be free, and that’s good right?

When you’re free but you know where you’ve been and where you belong?

I’ve never seen the sky look like this before. Was it always this blue?

Mine

I ponder and wander the streets with my palm up waiting for you.

I sulk and hope my heart on my sleeve won’t freeze from the cold.

 

 

Just imagine the sky’s blue and the heart pumping bright blood.

Just lie waiting ’till you bleed out on the grass.

 

 

Wanna patch up what you’ve broken?

Wanna save me from devastation and humiliation?

 

 

Say it aloud so I can know how insides feel.

Say it so i can make the decision to keep waiting or leave.

 

 

You’re beauty illuminates the room, brightens my day but

You’re not reciprocating emotion while mine continue to multiply, so I’ll divide

 

 

Mine. Since yours seem to be nonexistent yet I push against the barrier to fight for what’s

Mine. You’re not mine though, but, my mind thinks so while I still bleed.

 

 

All I’m really asking for is you…

Winter Wonderland

Snow, why don’t  you.

I suppose that’s fine with me.

Go on, snow, fall majestically onto the concrete

In giant heaps of white blankets

For me to make crappy snow women in.

 

 

Snow, why don’t you.

I don’t mind it when you fall.

You’re beautiful the way you cling to the leaves

Like monkeys in trees.

You leave me breathless with glee.

 

 

Snow, why don’t you.

I enjoy it when you come.

Go on, snow, land soft enough

For me to start a snowball fight.

Crash onto the coats with puffs of cold sugar.

 

 

Snow, why don’t you.

I suppose that’s fine with me.

Your flurries whirl me into a never ending spin

Only to hit cushiony cocaine packets

Rather than grass and tuberoses.

 

 

Snow, why don’t you.

I don’t mind it when you fall.

Go on, snow, just don’t turn bitter

Hard and icy, you make me sad

I’m far too clumsy to play your games.

 

 

Snow, why don’t you.

I enjoy it when you come.

But your lingering drives me insane

Like people who eat KitKats the wrong way.

Please don’t be an ex- boyfriend that won’t go away.

 

 

Snow, why don’t you.

It’s nice of you to stop by.

But don’t overstay your welcome when it’s time to say goodbye.

 I’m a New Yorker you see, with skyscrapers and taxis

  Your lingering feels like wax, see?

 

 

Snow, why don’t you.

I like it when you fall.

But your eviction notice gives you

No more and no less than 5 days

To say hello and then be gone.

So snow, go on, snow, why don’t you.